gatvol ramblings

'Gatvol'

For all you english speakers who don't understand afrikaans it means:

"fed-up".

That is EXACTLY what i feel right about now.

THEY just changed my whole programme on the day i am supposed to run it!

Not just two or three things...the WHOLE thing.

I have to start from scratch.

My problem:

The Bible tells me to respect and submit to my leaders...

Today i find that an impossible mission.

How...

How do you respect someone who calmly embarrases you in front of 5 other people?

How do you respect someone who doesn't respect you?

How do you respect someone who doesn't respect others?

My Prayer:

Lord i find it pretty difficult to sumbit to this leader and to respect him.

Father you see my heart and you know that i want to stuff my face with food in order to feel better about THEM changing my programme at the last minute.

Father you see how angry i am and how i think food will make me feel better...

Father...i need You to help me now...

help me to love...

and please help me not to over-eat.